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Monday, September 05, 2005

icons!

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Posted at 11:01 am by MisfitAngel
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Thursday, August 18, 2005

First week of college life

Well, I�ve been on campus for a week now.

Everything�s been ok I guess. My roommates pretty cool. Her name is Kari Co, (pronounced Keri). She�s cool.. shes like everybody back at home all grouped into one person. She occastionally drinks, she smokes pot, and one night she came in drunk and admitted she stole all her clothes. LOL. That makes her sound bad but shes really not. She�s nice and don�t bullshit like most girls. She isn�t one of thoses cookie cutter girls and she has her own style. She respects me and I respect her. So it all works out.
We (freshman) were supposed to be up here on Monday but I got here late. So of course, she got the good side of this little bitty box. LOL.. take about 15 steps and you can be on the other side of the room. But I got my lil area set up. I got black sheets and a pink blanket on top.. then I have my hundred pillows around it. LOL� yeah.. its great. Oh and there black and pink as well. Hopefully this weekend I will get my loft bed in here and then it will be kick ass! YEAH. But�
On the dark side, it kinda sucks. I have a really hard time meeting people and the only person I�ve met so far besides my roommate was a girl named Sara, and we say hey every now and again� but I dunno� im not the kind of person that will walk up to a person and just start talking to them and when I do I feel so fucking retarded like there thinking the whole time.. �damn I wish she would go away..� I don�t wanna make people feel uncomfortable. Hopefully things will get better when classes start.
We have mini courses, which is like a example of classes�. And it fuckin sucks. You wanna know why? I�ll tell you. Because I gotta write a 200 word paper on the Honor Code of Lander and I don�t even know where to start! Not to mention for some reason I have a short attention span. I tried hard to pay attention when she was talking, but for some reason I couldn�t� I think this whole college thing is gonna be A LOT harder than I thought. I�m gonna have to learn to dedicate myself and not goof off as much.
Oh, but on the brighter side of things (yes I know my thoughts are alittle disjointed) but� on the brighter side of things my peer mentor, Jessi was showing me around the art department since I wasn�t here for first day� and we walked into a room and there were two teachers in there. The women asked me what I was majoring in and I told her Visual Arts. She was real nice. Shes like �where you from?� I said �Anderson� and the man looked at me and was like �Anderson county?� I was like �yeah� and he goes �you wanna scholarship?� *mouth drops* � um. Um� YESSS! �� sure� is all I could say. Hes like �well I got one for an art major from Anderson and we cant find anybody so if you want its yours just come back and talk to me.� I was like NO FUCKING WAY! Yeah, it was awesome. So I went to talk to him and its 600 dollars a year which is 300 a semester.. fuck yeah. That�ll pay for books right there. But yeah, that was the highlight of my day I guess. I�ve been trying to keep myself busy, but theres not a lot ot do around here. I don�t get cable on my tv, cuz my roomie has the only cable plug on her side of the room and shes using it. Which is cool b/c she said I can watch it whenever I wanted to, but then I brought my xbox with my wireless controller.. and what do ya know? I left the other part of the WIRELESS controller at home� *slaps forehead* dumbass. Well, then I have this game ON a controller.. if you�ve ever been to the Anderson mall or jockey lot you know what im talking about. Its like 100 games on one controller u just plug up to your tv� well,that started messin up and I was like dammit.. AND.. to make things better, the dorms don�t get wireless internet.. SOOO.. I have to be hooked up to the ether net and I didn�t know this, (I didn�t but I didn�t think I needed it) and I don�t have the cord which is�� where? Lets say it together.. HOME! � yeah� shall I repeat myself? DUMBASS. Anywyas, I�ve used Kari�s cord to get on for a lil while, but tahts only when shes not here� I finally got my wireless set up on the wireless internet but I have to be up there at school to use it� and right now.. its not working�. The whole systems down� retards. So im writing this on word and gonna copy and paste.. since im procrastinating.. *evil grin* But anyways�. I should really get this work finished� like I have anything else to do� but I�ll catch all later� send me a message, email, anything, just hit me up.
later.

Posted at 10:42 am by MisfitAngel
Scars (1)

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Secrets

I wish that i had friends again. I wish i had a friend that was a girl that i could hang out with. Somebody to atleast talk to. Yeah, i got Drew and all my guy friends, but that seems like thats all i have. Which it is. I miss Keri. She was always so fun to hang out with. E'specially when we were drinking. We used to be "partners in crime"... now kendyl took my place... I used to be Kendyls best friend... now keri took my place. I dunno, i only have 2 more days in anderson and i wish i could go drive around clemson blvd one more time and just be like the old days. But i guess things change... people change... Hopefully i'll make new friends. I'm staying in a dorm (blah) so maybe i'll make friends with the girls that im sharing a room with. And other friends in my classes. Its hard for me to make friends... im really shy around other people and i usually dont talk to people unless i'm spoke to first. Hopefully i wont be lonely for the four years of my college carreer.
Anyways, Thers alot of stuff i gotta do before i leave Sunday. And honestly, im really too lazy and dont want to do any of it. But.... i have too. wash clothes, go clothes shopping, get stuff for my dorm, get everything ready and ready to go... I hate not knowing what the future holds...
Well, anyways, i guess i better hit the sack. If anbody feels like it they can always leave me a comment or a message on my tagboard.....
Yeah right...
As if i have friends.
Later.

Posted at 09:36 pm by MisfitAngel
Etch a Memory in my Soul

Saturday, July 30, 2005

Long shitty day

Well, i didnt do much today besdies lay in the bed..... today was friday, my first friday off in a long time, and i didnt do anything... hm... typical. Oh, thats the good part,... the bad part is i've started cutting again... i mean, its not a big deal. i was using blunt blades b/c my mom hid all the other sharp objects from the last time she found out i cut myself. But hey, who cares? Jarrod got onto me... at least somebody still cares. It makes me feel better when i do that. I dont like taking stuff out on other people, even if they did fuck me over, i just dont like confrontation i guess, so i take it out on myself. It makes me feel better so i dont feel anger / ect towards others. Plus, when you get that upset, nothing rational is running through your mind anywyas. I guess you could call it my way of release.
Anyways,, Sunday i am going to Gatlenburg, TN, so that will be good for me i guess. To get away for a while. And then when i come back, i only have to stay one more week here and then i move to Greenwood which i think will REALLY be good for me. New place, new people, new start. So that will def be good. But, its late and im bored, the tv is distracting me from concentrating on what im writing so i guess i'll go watch tv until i fall asleep. :) Peace out.

XxKittyxX

Posted at 12:20 am by MisfitAngel
Etch a Memory in my Soul

Friday, July 29, 2005

Do i have "FUCK ME OVER" on my forehead?

Please, answer me that! Cuz apperently i do....
I mean, what the FUCK did i ever do to you? HUH? Why you feel you gotta pull this shit? You think im a fucking retard? Apparently. "My phone was on viberate"... BULLSHIT. I call you 5 times, you dont pick up. I call you private twice and you pick up... coincidence? I dont think so. Best friends? Is that how people treat their best friends? Or maybe "shes" your best friend now. I saw that one comming... leaving me out of stuff ya'll do. I looked over it for a long time... all i wanted to do was to hang out and the one time i did, i got totally ignored. All i wanted to do was to just chill and hang out like we used to but after that SHIT, ....... lol... What did i used to tell you? If it wasnt for you, i had no reason to live. I could always go talk to you, someone to hang out with, laugh with and just have fun with. I put up with all you BULLSHIT and i get dumped to the curb. FUCK THAT. Remember when you said you felt like i was always dissin you for keri? HAHA.... at least i called you. If i didnt answer my phone i called you back. i didnt FUCKING ignore you... loosing a best friend is like loosing a loved one. You wanna play that game? .... I guess thats what i get for playing dumb. I can see you now, seating a Buffallos, if thats where you really were, looking at keri, "Its crystal, should i pick it up..." or after i get off the phone with you, "whew! that was close..." ... i dont even know what to say. You were the only person in this whole FUCKING UP world that i could trust, that i could talk to.... now who do i got? Thats so fucked up. You know what? I'm not even gonna waste my time no more. If thats how im gonna be treated, FUCK THAT. You have fun "boy hunting" with keri... you have fun remembering how you fucked over your friend... you used to be cool, awesome, and sweet... for the past few months you've been nothing but a person whos cellphone is glued to there head, and would rather hang out with my other good friend than me.... its alright... why ami not used to it? Now niether one of you will take the time for me.... If i had to stay in anderson much longer, i just might shoot myself, but seeing im going to collage and in high hopes of making some true friends, i'll just go on these next few weeks fucked up and knowing i dont have any muther fuckin friends......... shit. Who needs um?
Im out. Peace.

Posted at 12:46 am by MisfitAngel
Etch a Memory in my Soul

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Start Of College

Well, this is the beggining of a new start i suppose. Today is July 27 and i start my new carreer at collage, Aug 14 at Lander University. I decided to start writing again and hopefully keep it up this time to see how I, myself, change through out my collage carreer. This weekend i went to an EXPO at the campus. We went through the campus and tried to get to know people, register for classes, and toured the campus. The only person i met was my roommate, Rachael. I'm not the kind of person that walks up the people and just starts talking to them, so needless to say, i didn't meet anybody. It seems like i was the only person who wasnt talking to anybody. I just hope when school starts, that it will be better. The good news is on Monday, Wendsday, and Friday my earliest class is 9:30 and my latest class is 5:00, and on Tuesday and Thursday my earliest class is 10:00 and my lastest is like 5:00. So its all good i suppose. I have 2 art classes (art 103 and 105), phycology 101, english 101, and history 101. Once again i dont have a math class, but thats only because the women suggested that if i want to build up my grades that i should wait until next semester. I'm also hoping that i will get to live in the aparments on the campus, cuz i really dont want to share a bathroom with three other girls.
Anyway, its 3 in the morning and i have to work tommorrow so i guess that i should go to bed. I'll try to keep this up. We'll see. Peace out.

XxKittyxX

Posted at 11:52 pm by MisfitAngel
Etch a Memory in my Soul